I am tired. Seriously. Tired of chasing after some of you. Tired of reminding again and again. Tired of being taken for granted. I could let Mr. P Tan know that submissions that were due were not handed in. However, each time I look at you, I know you too, are overwhelmed and bogged down by other work. I try to make up excuses for some of you. However, I am running out of it.
Work that was supposed to be due last week are left undone even till this week. I cannot help but feel that it speaks much of the little respect you have of me. I am disappointed. :( I even made announcement in class yesterday so that I can walk away today with 100% submission. Yet today, I have people coming up to me telling me they didn't have the worksheets. You could have found me last week to get the worksheets. It really doesn't feel very nice to have to walk away feeling that your students really don't care about how you feel and that the understatement is: they pay little regard for your work.
If you really don't know, I sleep very little and try very hard for this class but I am really at the end of my stick. I really place 4B as my top priority and I have made 3A feel that I have neglected them. I wake up early in the morning to mark essays, weekly journals and prepare notes and essays for you but I hear groans and complaints that I am not doing enough. All I can say is I am trying. I remember the promise I made to 4B at the start of this year and I won't forget it: that i will put my 100% effort into you. At the end of the day, what you want to achieve is really your battle to fight. I can give you the ammunition as I know how but if you do not want to even press on, what more can I say?
I am tired and disappointed. My weekends are burnt from marking. I don't even go out anymore. Think about it- Do we teachers not try hard as well? Don't we deserve that bit of respect to get our work handed in by deadline? it's time to also see things from other people's perspectives and not just inwardly, isn't it? You are young adults to me and I have every intention to treat you like one. In fact, I do. Everytime you ask for an extension, I don't rail at you like you are a lower sec. I know you are stressed too. But see it from my perspective too. It is not fair that I have to chase for a homework which deadline was last week. So, please, do me and yourself a favour. Get thy act together. The deadline for phrases is due by FRIDAY.
I really believe this class can do it. I have also grown to love this class and which is why I am disappointed that some did not bother to get the worksheets from me until today. Whether it is due to the fact that you are absentminded or that you really dislike having me as a teacher, i think some boundaries have to be drawn. work has to be submitted. You are, after all, the one sitting for the EL paper on 25 October. I really don't wish to see anyone not trying.
I know too that some who have not submitted my work do not have intentions to hurt me and that you had visiting to do. I completely understand what it is like and I know you do try very hard in class. Please try to manage your time. If I have a chance, I also wish to not write this post and be your friend instead, empathising with you on the stress of being a Secondary Four student. However, work is work, my dears.
Work hard for this year, don't live to regret it. Really. After that, we can have all the partying we want. This is my daily prayer for you-- to excel in your Os, not just EL only. And you can do it, I am very certain of that, if you put your heart and soul into it. I am sorry if this is distasteful to some. The mother in me just have to come out and reprimand a little.
Work Hard
Miss Isabelle Tan
